Today is a very different day for me. This is the first time I’m writing as me, for me. So if anyone had happened to stumble upon this, please bear with me. My writing is going to be quite a bit rusty, rough (or rather ragged) round the edges… I’m going to need some space and time to build up momentum and find my place within the world of sharing my writings in public.
Writing or speaking in public is not something i’ve ever had the desire to do. Before the tragedy that took place in 2014 and destroyed my life I had no desire to speak or share my own thoughts in public. My life story was dragged out of me and scattered everywhere across the internet. None of this was through choice. I’m a very private person. My private life with Naz, my late fiancé and soulmate, was exactly that, private.
During the COVID lockdown of 2020 and 2021 like many others I was forced to re-evaluate my life and the direction I was heading in. My mental health had deteriorated, my anxiety had reached unbearable levels and my income had virtually disappeared.
About half way through the lockdown I saw a tweet, reminding me about a book I’d once been recommended – The Artist’s Way. I’ll talk about this more in future writings as it deserves to be properly introduced. But what I will say now is that the book, and the programme it’s built around, is life changing.
The book has been instrumental in creating a huge mental and emotional shift around how I see myself. It has helped me become more aware of the barriers holding me back and the book encouraged me to explore my true creative self. The book gave me the permission I needed to focus and recentre part of my life on me.
It’s still early days, but things are changing within me.
This is my first post about my journey ahead.